Pointless

Sometimes I wonder,
What the point of all this is.
Is there even a use in trying,
When the world feels ready to end?

Is this how they felt in Europe,
During the war to end all wars?
Or the sequel?
Or in Gaza or Ukraine?

And all the other places
Where bombs fall like rain?
Though that isn’t happening here,
Even if it feels the same.

In the country where freedom rings,
Less and less,
There’s a balancing act between
Human rights and self-respect.

The nation divided
While the Supreme Court is united.
The Constitution ignored
By the person tasked to enforce.

The Founding Fathers couldn’t have seen,
Couldn’t have imagined,
The broken system
Their ideals would become.

Checks and balances only work
When each party cares,
When everyone fights fair,
When power is left equal.

But provisions were left or added,
Designed to tip the scales.
And who enforces the law,
When the enforcer breaks it?

In the country where freedom rings,
Less and Less,
Sometimes I wonder,
What’s the point of all this?

Eraseable Pen

I’d rather start again,
Than reach the end.

Reread books one and two,
To refresh for book 3,
But, let’s be honest,
I’m never going to finish that trilogy.

I can recite all of season 1,
As if reading from the script.
But I’ll never know
How the show actually ends.

Notebooks with half-filled pages,
Journals with chunks missing,
A fresh slate for trying again,
Both collecting dust on a shelf.

A million stories
Left waiting for me
To finish writing
Stuck on chapter 3.

Maybe I do
Have commitment issues.

Maybe that’s why I write
In erasable pen.

Beyond the bone

I tried

Unfinished, 20 Jan 2023

I missed Thanksgiving,

Christmas and New Year’s

And so for my birthday, I tried

Then it rained indoors

And I found cleaning

An excuse to stay

For at least one more day

And I tried again

But every pothole screamed

“it’s all your fault”

Blame for something

That might not happen at all

Trapped in a dream

Unfinished, 9 May 2023

Sometimes I think I already died

Whether by my own hands

or part of some grand design

And this world is just my life

As it flashes before my eyes

I feel like I’m trapped in a dream

Just waiting for an alarm to wake me

Or some big realization to snap me back

To a life that was left behind

But who will I be when I awake?

Broken crayons

I am broken.

But not beyond repair.

I am hurt.

But not beyond healing.

The cracks in my foundation

Can be filled and mended.

Darkness eventually gives way to light.

Storms eventually break

And clouds give way to the sun.

A flower once thought dead

Can bloom again.

And if broken crayons still color the same,

Than my brokenness is still worthy of love.

Importantly Unseen Burden

I represent the strong and brave
The defenders of us all
I blend in and disappear
To hide those without fear
I weigh 25 plus pounds
Yet there’s not one complaining sound
I am the pack
That an American Soldier
Carries on her back

Inside I hide
The notes and pictures
Sent from a far-off home
Little food and fewer comforts
Ammunition packs are my friends
Though they never stay for long
I am the pack
That an America Soldier
Carries on his back

Outside there’s little to see
Nothing but a name to you
Yet something more to me
I dread the day
It’s torn off and I’m tossed away
For it would mean that
Somewhere

There’s a helmet
On top of a rifle
Stuck straight up in the ground
Between a pair of shiny boots
And I would be
The pack
That an American Soldier
Carried on their back

Where Did She Go?

Written: October 2011

Tears streaming
Down a pale white face
Green eyes shining gold
Under the dim light
Why would she run
From a simple embrace?
To where did her heart race?
Where did that little girl go
The one with
Tears streaming down her face?